4 in the morning.

final words

2008-07-22T18:31:06Z

hi everyone.

with effect from today, i will no longer be posting any entries in this LJ.
the account will remain solely to access my friends' protected entries, & also for commenting.

i've set up a new private blog,
but meanwhile crimsonstains.wordpress.com will still be available for public entries & photos. (:

GOODBYE.

2007-08-17T16:16:54Z

certain utterances just arent meant to be shared with the public.
This journal is going friends-only from now on.
if you have an LJ account, comment to be added.
i'll let SELECTIVE PEOPLE in.
so if i don't add you back, please take the hint thanks. (:

rock your body, yeah

2007-08-17T13:28:54Z

im a good girl!
im home early today.
skipped town with dine & claire so i could go home to study and erm, save on transport.
see how good a girl i am?
oh right.
in the end, i ended up slacking.
how nice.

jan was so sweet today.
she came over to SIM just to lunch with me.
even crashed my lecture for half an hour before she had to rush back to NUS for classes.
she's such a doll. =)

am still in a gloomy mood.
whassup with me man?
i have a complete family, plus many wonderful doting girlfriends who would do anything for me.
love them loads. =)
im seriously a very lucky girl.
i ought to cherish what i have now and stop being such a demanding & self-absorbed bitch.
wake up wake up!
sigh.
im seriously in need of more hugs. =)

at least tmr, i'll get to see someone who looks SUPER FLY.
im depending on you, dude.

nobody said it was easy, its such a shame for us to part.

2007-08-16T14:44:21Z

Claire took these pictures when we were outside Causeway Point last night.
thanks darling.
you made me look artistic.

girlfriends; i love you both alot okay.
you dont really have to be apologetic about my oversensitivity.
after all, he's constantly teasing me about that; its not as if i dont know he's like that.
anyway, im not such a good friend either (but i'll try to improve.)
you know how bitchy i can get =/
your friendship means alot to me too okay.
hugs tightly.

seems like it was yesterday, when i saw your face.

2007-08-15T16:11:43Z

Janet Lim Yu Ling.
thank you for the talk on the phone today.
thank you for soothing my fears, and wiping my tears.
thank you for all the ultimate sweet things you said to me.
thank you for never making jokes at my expense.
thank you for the little prayer you said on my behalf.
thank you for being one of my bestest friends in the world.
i lub chu deep deep.

i hate school as well.
i dont wanna come to school anymore, seriously.
i dont mind home-schooling.
there's nothing for me to look forward to.
it just makes me more depressed, hurt and self-conscious.
its funny how my opinion of school can change so quickly.
why should i waste so much $ just to make myself feel worse right?

its been a long and winding journey, but im finally here tonight.

2007-08-14T16:05:28Z

dinner at Muthu's Curry (Suntec) with Jessie.
and thats the last time im gonna visit there.
i apparently cant take much spicy food.

and i dont care what people say.
i might just give in to some of my old vices again.
maybe.
but booze really does help a little.

so lonely inside, so busy out there.

2007-08-13T18:01:10Z

disappointment, yet again.
well, maybe you just dont give a damn do you.

so this is how significant i really am.
i see.
i get it now.

im contemplating changing blog again.
maybe turning this journal into friends-only.
but you'll need to get an account first before you add me.
we'll see how it goes.

didnt get a lot at class, but i know it don't come in a shot glass.

2007-08-12T15:12:45Z

craps; laughter.

SCREW HARVARD REFERENCING !!!
SCREW YOU, SCREW YOU, SCREW YOU !!!

It's amazing how you can speak right to my heart

2007-08-10T14:00:32Z

wah there are alot of people at my house now!
i just came back home not along ago to find many pairs of shoes outside.
there're 2 german girls (including irene) and the vietnamese girl, who just arrived today.
i havent seen the vietnamese cos she's showering now.
( 5 minutes later: oh ok now ive seen her. she looks just like any one of us! erm, like DUH.)

+++

im going to sound pompous now but please.
no one except for meifang and dine can call me "Lynnie/ Lynny".
likewise, no one except for hweis, zhis and yun are allowed to call me 'Wans".
i know this isnt very nice but our nicknames for one another are an inside thing.
please be more original and invent your own nickname for me! =D
hahah.
i dont mind you guys calling me "Lyn" for short but to hear someone else address me as "Lynnie" is just plain.. weird.
esp since very few people call me that and it was The Girls who came up with that name.
no offence. =)
bah; im trying to put it across in a nice way cos it has happened a couple of times and im just plain annoyed. =)

+++

today's breakfast/ brunch was with meifang , dine & daryl.
and then it was school.
edwin rented a car after booking out of camp and he came to pick us girls up from SIM.
picked up jian an along the way too, & we had dinner at simpang bedok.
the boys had tons of army stories to share man.
so interesting.
he sent all of us home too.
which was good cos we saved on transport.
look there i go again, complaining about transport. =/

+++

damn, i still have to get started on OB!

+++

im beginning to love this song more and more. =)

It's amazing how you can speak right to my heart
Without saying a word, you can light up the dark
Try as I may I can never explain
What I hear when you don't say a thing

The smile on your face lets me know that you need me
There's a truth in your eyes saying you'll never leave me
The touch of your hand says you'll catch me wherever I fall
You say it best ....when you say nothing at all

All day long I can hear people talking out loud
But when you hold me near, you drown out the crowd 
Try as they may they could never define
What's been said between your heart and mine

The smile on your face lets me know that you need me
There's a truth in your eyes saying you'll never leave me
The touch of your hand says you'll catch me wherever I fall
You say it best...........When you say noting at all

Oh......The smile on your face lets me know that you need me
There's a truth in your eyes saying you'll never leave me
The touch of your hand says you'll catch me wherever I fall
You say it best (say it best).. when you say nothing at all

(You say it best when you say nothing at all
You say it best when you say nothing at all..)

That smile on your face
The truth in your eyes The touch of your hand
Let's me know that you need me..
(You say it best when you say nothing at all
You say it best when you say nothing at all..)

cuz we're having an after party, checkin' out 6 in the morning

2007-08-08T15:38:35Z

i dont know if im giving myself unnecessary stress. i mean, a bit of stress is good but definitely not what im facing right now. work is piling up and i was asking myself if i made the wrong decision in accepting this job. i did not anticipate things to be this difficult. when school assignments and projects are piling up and working takes up most of your remaining schedule, the last thing you need is an unsupportive family. shant elaborate furthur but thank God for my girls :D you dont know how important you are to me man.

i also figured out ( i should have, a long time ago) that im really bad with relationships. im horrible. i treat people real nasty when they're so good to me. and then i feel guilty but the hurt cant be undone. maybe im just too difficult to please, and get sick and tired easily. this is bad. im so evil that i hate myself. but then again, why are guys so pigheaded? esp that one. seeing his situation and how he looks like now, im so thankful we're no longer together. what a blessing in disguise. but then, it doesnt make me any less evil. i still am. thats something i need to work on. or else, all my future relationships will never last past a month :/

i think girls are so hot!
so sexy.
for the thousandth time, i wish i was a guy.

and did i mention i made an enemy in lecture today?
that guy freaking knocked me over cos he wasnt watching where he was going.
so i got all hot and bothered bcus i cant stand people who continue walking when they're looking behind them.
i barked at him, 'for goodness' sake, can you pls watch where you're going?"
and according to claire, the guy was totally speechless.
she said his mouth was hanging open in shock.
but i did hear a 'WTF!?" coming out of him.
so ungentlemanly.
hey, it was painful you know!
he could have dislocated my shoulder! (inside joke).
so rude some more. tsk tsk

anyways, this is a self-reminder.
my OB individual assignment.
very, very important.

Your true beauty's description looks so good that it hurts

2007-08-06T15:07:39Z

finally got to see my darlings today.
like FINALLY!!!
boy, i missed them so much.
we had Botak Jones at AMK.

my dawn.

all 3 of us had the cajun chicken.
damn nice!!
very filling. =D
and cheap too. only 7 bucks.

oh this is me and Irene, the german girl staying at my house now.
she's such a doll.

school and work is tiring me out.
im uber stressed!
HELPPPP.
someone save my sorry ass please.

no matter what i do, all i think about is you.

2007-08-04T14:49:25Z

so, the german girl has arrived.
her name is Irene (pronounced as Erene, though).
she's 15 years old, nice, sweet, tall, simple, yet mature.
my whole family likes her (:

and i went to work today.
my first day, officially.
saturday wasnt counted.
and i made a new friend.
the other staff are all pretty nice toooo. (:
its very exhausting, though.
the tai-tais who come in are sooo irritating; screw them!
my shirt-folding skills improved.
thanks Carmen.

tmr, again.

In the middle of the dance floor, now they preparing to scrap

2007-08-02T16:02:00Z

at 7.20 am this morning, i received an sms from daryl.
"wake up already?"
i muttered a "WTF" and promptly went back to sleep.
at 8am, dine called and when i realised that they were already driving over to my place, i let out a little gasp.
i hopped out of my bed and dashed into the bathroom.
half an hour later, dine claire & daryl picked me up and off we went to ikea tampines for breakfast in daryl's dad's Merc. =)

look at our sumptous spread.

each of us had to strike a pose, but daryl BUAY ON.

this is dine.

me, stabbing at my sausage murderously.

the most unglam shot of claire, ever. =)

after breakfast, we went furniture shopping.
(more like looking for camwhoring opportunities.)

dragon fighting with octopus.

we PU SIAO.

claire acting like some director.

this pic is abit dark, but claire was actually pretending to scold her fake subordinate, daryl.

camwhores.

dine acting like some ah ma at the fake sewing machine.
her specs super ah ma la, i tell you.

daryl sitting on the toilet bowl.

my girls. =D

big crab, and my crab.

at the parking lot. wheee! claire is my daughter.

and then we act pro.
claire and i cant drive for nuts, so we had to make do with pretending.

claire first.

then me.
i was damn excited can!
wa lao. this kinda chance doesnt come that easily okay!

im so happy cos i look so ZAI here! =D

daryl drove us to his home.
damn shiok, he has his own property man.

this is claire playing with the swing.
tsk tsk, this is a sign of lost childhood. HAHA.

then we were in his bedroom or something.
and he showed us his childhood toys.
these are his Digimons!
dine and claire got so excited man.

then, his sticker books.
now, where the hell are mine??

we had to travel to SIM for our lecture.
but after that,we headed down to NYP library (!) to borrow research material for our assignments.
yeah, i know.
so studious right.

NAH.
Claire Cho Mei Fang, i uploaded everything already.
damn fast can!

All I need in this life of sin, is me and my girlfriend

2007-07-31T16:01:55Z

chey, today wasnt officially my first day.
it was spring-cleaning and stock-taking!
cos Raoul Women just finished renovating and it happened to be the last day of the month.
and nobody told me.
so i happily trotted to work in my long-sleeved black shirt, black pants and black pointy-toed HEELED pumps.
imagine the pure agony of wiping shelf after shelf, ironing shirts after shirts, ALL IN COVERED HEELS.
cheebs.
and i just realised i need to brush up my ironing skills.
also, i cant fold shirts for nuts.
especially the professional method.
oh save me please.

on an entirely different note.
ive said it before, and i'll say it again.
transport fares as a student in SIM sucks.
today is officially the last day we enjoy our student concession priviledges.
from tmr onwards, i guess i'll be complaining endlessly about transport.
to make matters worse, i needa change bus to get to school.
which means, at least 4 bus rides per day.
double cheebs, and a bit of KNS.

my feet is freaking sore now.
i dont care.
on sat when i report to work, im gonna wear FLATS.
then if anyone dares to give me a "gentle reminder", i'll insist that my feet are blistered with corns and callouses and bleeding.
that ought to shut them up.
i hope.

apologies for sounding like such a major aunty.
studies have shown that as you grow older, you tend to get more and more discontented with life.
im already feeling the symptoms.

Rain man is back with little miss sunshine

2007-07-30T13:01:41Z

aye, so much work to be done.

Happy, though, that our study session this morning actually materialised.
dine, claire and i met for breakfast at King Albert Park's McDonald's and studied a little.
i think we need to keep up with the momentum of studying.
goodness, i fear that our interest might wane after some time. :P

tmr's my first day of work!
anxious, excited.
i should probably stop being so paranoid.
egypt lah, as the girls would say.
Ha! :D

so confused, my heart's bruised

2007-07-25T12:38:30Z

apparently, the first doctor said daddy's tumour was cancerous, & that was what set the whole family so worried.
then today, after dad's operation, the other doc from SGH said it wasnt.
but who to believe?
what if doc no. 2 simply missed it out or something?
confirmation results will only be out 2 weeks later.
in the meantime, we'll just have to keep our fingers crossed.
i just wish mom had been more open to me about it.
obviously i wouldnt be of much help, but we're all family.
now i know why the pastor called those few times.
counselling sessions with my parents.
i just knew there was something amiss when the P called me by mistake.
anyhow, so far its okay news.
at least for today.
i cant imagine the contrary.
our lives would all become topsy-turvy.
in a huge way.

From rags to riches, club packed with bitches

2007-07-24T14:49:45Z

its two up in the morning girl
and the DJ playing that song now

went shopping for formal wear & shoes today. (no thanks to my new job)
dine accompanied me; that sweetie (:
so i bought black heeled pumps which i'd been procrastinating to buy for the longest time and a black suit from G2000.
thank God for sales promotions.

and we went to cut our hair.
i had to trim my thick fringe for working purposes, while dine just wanted a change.

this was us BEFORE the cut.

and now, AFTER.
me, still in the salon.

dine's turn.
she's feeling kinda naughty today.

our new hair. (:

we both want to recommend hairstylist Agnes Kong, from Hair Plus @ Far East Plaza.
she's efficient, friendly, sensitive & has good taste.
that same statement cant be said for many female hairstylists i know.
dine & i have already decided to frequent her services from now on. (:

remember i said my second houseguest is a Cambodian?
HAHA i was wrong.
she's a Vietnamese.
my bad!
oooops.

daddy's going for an op tmr morning & im pretty worried about him.
hope he'll be fine and God will take care of him.

I got a story 'bout my favorite girl

2007-07-22T15:57:12Z

today
went for interview at FJ Benjamin.
i got the job!
will be starting work on the 31st.
work location will be Raoul Women @ Paragon.
will be confirmed working on weekends, full shift.
so if you intend to date me out, weekends are strictly a no-no. (:
and once again, i have my darling Zhis to thank for this job recommendation.
didnt really expect to get it eventually, so thank you dear.

yesterday (sunday)
ok lets see. there was jia en's farewell party in the afternoon, where people got a tad too emotional. 2.5 years in Perth isnt that long really, but it kind of jerks us a bit to see the people (whom you grew up together with) leave you one by one to pursue their studies. i must say that our gang, though not exactly that close, are really nice folks. it was rather touching. =)

and then, had to rush off for the Rasa Satay Singapura event @ Lau Pa Sat. that was really a sucky affair & to make things worse, we had a field manager whose face was as grosteque as Frankenstein and a personality as bland as dishwashing detergent. ok i know im not being the nicest person by saying all this, but can i just declare my dislike for him? he is so... whatever. anyway, that marked the end of our "surveying career". good riddance really. hawhaw.

saturday
day out with fy & esther. the whole day was spent in the city hall + bugis precinct (as if i dont already spend enough time there). we shopped from 1pm to 10pm, which makes it 9 hours! on hindsight, i rather amazed at our stamina, but then girls can do anything where shopping is concerned, so there you go. =) our day ended with desserts @ Ah Chew Desserts, located somewhere near Bugis's Icon. Esther's recommendation! my Hong Kong red bean with vanilla ice cream was a definite must-try. =)

some photos taken during lectures.
grabbed them from dearest Claire!
am morphing into a professional photo-stealer soon. =/
hehs.

made a meal and threw it up on sunday

2007-07-20T14:01:57Z

photos taken over the past few weeks.
(stolen from C & D).

we're all getting old.
and i mean, ALL of us.

We gon sip bacardy like its yo birthday

2007-07-19T15:53:42Z

been working diligently over the past couple of days.
haha NOT! :)
today was another unsatisfactory working day.
nonetheless, there was ktv in the evening at theusualplace with claire, dine & daryl.
it was SUPER SHIOK i tell you.
our best ever.
mambo-ing and doing all the sexy moves; whoa baby! ;)

just thinking of tmr irks me.

but before i forget,

HAPPY 21ST HWEIS!
sorry im a day late darling but i hope you had a smashing one in San Deigo!
do take care ya?
missyouloads*

shining like a diamond, rolling with the dice

2007-07-15T14:26:36Z

shucks!
ive been feeling the urge to blog everyday due to itchy fingers & a restless state of mind.
but i dont care :)

so ive known all along that a German girl will be coming to live with us for 3 weeks in august (which is like next month) & i was pretty excited about it.
then yesterday, Mom dropped 2 bombshells.
1st bombshell: a Cambodian girl will be coming over too.
2nd bombshell: the Cambodian girl & the German girl will be staying with us AT THE SAME TIME.

faintsFAINTSfaints.

You can hear she’s a beautiful girl

2007-07-14T10:03:27Z

"Before you criticise someone, you should walk a mile in their shoes.
That way when you criticise them, you are a mile away from them and you have their shoes."

- River Island

only you can set me free; cause i'm guilty

2007-07-13T15:32:30Z

doing street surveys aint fun at all :(
Claire Cho! we need a PROPER JOB lahh.
i think its probably true that we were princesses in our last lives, ha!

im currently in love with Bananarama.
what can i say?
im just a mambo jumbo freak;
oh yes i am!

my greenie still hasnt completely recovered & im really upset about it.
fortunately for me, the Apple folks are pretty nice.

... ...

such a mambo fanatic!

we're no strangers to love; you know the rules and so do i

2007-07-12T14:24:40Z

wednesday:
thomson road.
bak chor mee.
ice cream prata.
joy doggy.
another pet shop.
victoria concert hall at night.
Australia Choir Boys (soooo cute!)
the brother performed as a double bassist.

today:
raffles city.
river island sale.
marina square.
lunch @ Pick & Bite.
job training at chinatown.

MY IPOD HAS MALFUNCTIONED :(
all my fault!
i didnt screw the lid of my waterbottle tightly & water seeped into it.
lets hope the warranty is useful.

:'(

Let me set the mood right.

2007-07-10T15:25:41Z

okay i seriously have no idea WHY.
but school life has been madnessss.
everyday, something dramatic/ interesting will happen to us man.
shrugs and tosses hair back flippantly.
*

01. Claire, Dine & i were having lunch at the SIM cafeteria. there werent enough seats available, so when this China guy came up to us and asked if he could sit together with us, (ie. sit across from me), we were fine with it. and so, lunch started. i was telling the girls about my China trip. Claire started saying how in Taiwan, there is Taidong, Tainan, Taixi and Taibei. So, Dine just asked casually, "oh, so Guangzhou has Guangdong, Guangnan, Guangxi and Guangbei lah!" and then, guess what? the Chinese guy burst out laughing!!! OMG! apparently, there was only Guangdong and Guangxi (no Guangnan & Guangbei), and he had been totally engaged in our China conversation! goodness gracious me.
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02. Claire, Dine, Janet & i were in the loo at Far East. Claire & i went into the cubicles first. whilst inside the cubicle, i heard Dine & Janet laughing about a certain smell in one of the other cubicles. so when i was done & i got out of the cubicle, i openly imitated their laughter. Janet then entered the cubicle which i'd exited from, & Dine entered the cubicle that Claire had exited from. i started dolling myself up in front of the mirror while Claire busied herself at the hand-dryer, which was situated at the other end of the loo. just then, a reasonably well-dressed young lady with a Guess bag flung open her cubicle door with a loud BANG! and strode out. Attributing it to an over-exertion of her energy, i didnt think much of it at first. Then Claire started telling me something. Suddenly, the young lady, who had by then walked over to where Claire was, barked at her, "EXCUSE ME!!!!" & Claire and i were so stunned that, we burst out into giggles and my tummy hurt so much that i squatted down while continuing to laugh. That must have angered the young lady even more. For before she left the loo, she barked out a "HA HA HA" (imitating us) and stomped out. OMG that was the ultimate man! Dine & Janet came out to a still giggling two of us. I dont know why but we found the entire situation so amusing. Dine's theory was that earlier on, the young lady could have nisunderstood that we were laughing at her, when in actual fact, Dine & Janet were laughing about the smell and i was merely imitating their laughter. Claire's theory was that the young woman is CRAZY. whatever man. Egypt lah. (Egypt means whatever, HAHAHA!!!)
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03. if you think i am the only PU SIAO one, think again. Claire & Dine are both blissfully attached to wonderful boyfriends. So Claire has already decided she wants a baby girl and Dine wants a baby boy. and guess what? they decided to betroth their future children to each other! They've even got their children's names planned out! -_- like Claire wants her future daughter named Sarah and Dine wants her future son named Zerray ( chinese name Zerui.) they told their respective boyfriends about this and boy, were they freaked out man! & since i was very sure that i would never be marrying, i volunteered to be their children's matchmaker, "Matchmaker Lynnie", with the signature matchmaker's mole and fan (insert 1970's Tian Mi Mi song in the background.) then recently, Claire thought of a new idea to freak out her boyfriend even more. She wanted to suggest to him that she, Dine & i will all live together in the same house with our respective families! -_- and i said my future dog would be Prince Albert & hers would be named Hugo. then we realised that it was impossible to betroth our dogs to one another since both are male names. HAHAHA!!! gosh, the things we think about. a bit too young, hor?
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04. i was telling the girls about how my indian teacher in kindergarten used to mispronounce my Chinese name " Wan Qi" as "Wan Kee". then one of the girls gasped that "Sng Wan Kee" sounds like a chicken rice shop name. ( no thanks to Boon Tong Kee, i guess -_-). so now, it seems that besides opening a Freakybananas Cafe, i now have to start a "Sng Wan Kee" chain of chicken rice stalls all over Singapore!!!

sighsighsigh.
girls, you are both CRAZY.
but... i LOVE!!!!